The marks on my arms.

So we are early into year 2011 and things are weird, like strange weird. He likes me, I am pretty sure anyways and I do find him attractive. He's a good person as far as I can tell, like really sweet, but he's one of those guys you just can't win with because he is into couple of other girls. I am so not the girl that dates a guy like that, I would like to have my guy all to myself, not a player.

Moving onto another subject- My birthday is in 15 days guyz! I'm turning 20 this year ;) and going to be doing a bunch of heavy drinking and smoking on my golden birthday! Wishing for a plane ticket somewhere, anywhere really. I don't honestly care where it is because it would mean I could have a couple of days away from this place, this taboo routine that makes me feel like life is going nowhere, no whereee NO WHERE. I am afraid of growing up and all this shit and pressure from the people in my life is not helping a bit. So a day or two or three would be great for me, A FRESH BREATH OF FUCKING OXYGEN for once.

Why are you only logical on Sundays?
please remember us for what we were and not what we are now, because what we are now is BULLSHIT. We never talk and I hate that a lot because it doesn't even feel like right. You would get what I was saying if you read this.

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P.S. I am super fucking stoned right now, so please forgive my writing.