happy to know you.

I am so ready for this. My life is finally starting... THANK GOODNESS.

I can be EVIL

I am feeling super nostalgic reading my old entries, man life changes so fast, every day something new and unexpected happens and I feel like I just can't catch up. Don't get me wrong, I love that about the world, I love seeing new things happen and seeing some things fade away but I just wish for one day or moment that it would stop just so i could feel a little more sane. The summer is gone and Autumn is here and this makes me happy, I can finally breathe again, the cold crisp air is like fresh oxygen to my lungs and the leaves falling from the trees is like therapy to me. My favorite season of all has finally come again and I know it will go by so fast because like i said new things happen all the time and this season will be gone in an instant, then winter will be back and soon spring. Like I said, I just wish things would sit still for a moment.

You are fading into the lights, the background music and I don't really care at all. When I see that you are calling I usually let it ring because I am ready for us to be over. You were just something that I needed for awhile, but now you are used up and my patience is gone. I will not apologize for that because you knew that that was all this was, a time where we both needed a good fuck and a smoking buddy, someone to get drunk with and to laugh with about our fucking screwed up lives. We each needed each other but only for a moment, just long enough for things to get back to normal. I can't say that I will miss you because well I won't, I realize that I am a selfish bitch most of the time, but only when I don't care enough to keep a relationship going, and well you dear, I do not need anymore.

I am sure you will hate me for this but maybe in some small way it will help you grow and not to be so naive, please get some balls already.