the past.

i wish we could go back. to when things were right.
i wish we could go back. to the place that gave us life.
i wish we could go back. to the laughter that we once shared.
i wish we could go back. to where we first met.

i just wish we could go back, because this time, i know i wouldn't fuck it up.

A Memo for my Mind

i wish i had a face people would remember. i wish i left some kind of impression on a person. but i think i just fall into the dust.

i'm an old soul.

documents.

I need some weedz.

fading lights

i've been way over thinking things lately, like my mind just goes constantly. i can never take a minute to rest it, and it's really beginning to take a toll on me. i am absolutely exhausted, my body won't do good things for me anymore.

i miss you.

awed

"i once walked with a mindless man, only to discover he was the most beautiful person in the world. i'll never forget that day, when i realized how much i loved his everything. and i will never forget that mindless man not for the rest of my living, breathing, dreaming days. he is my everything and i am forever his slave. "

rianne.

felt love

Another fucking restless night.



Thankyou for telling me this, thank you so much, because i needed to hear it.

entirely numb.

i love the small things, the things that make people so wonderful.
small freckles, scruffy beards,big dimples, button noses, pouty lips, glorious smiles, and wonderful laughs.

people in this world are beautiful.

She was beautiful, wasn't she.

I can feel a hot one

i'm learning as i go, that things will never stay the same. people will never stay the same, voices won't stay the same, or opinions will change. respect is lost for some, and gained for others. regret is passed along to the weak, and we ask what the hell is this life all about. god i wish i had a clue. i want good things for you, and i want us to stay friends, i want our plans to come through for once. i want to travel the world with you, waking up on the west coast in the morning, and being gone before the afternoon has begun. it's alot to ask for, alot to hope for, but if i could just get something i want in life, for once, it would make my world. i am so young, and i want to stay this way forever, but let's face it, life tears you down and gives you age. and i need to know that my youth will be beautiful and so out of the ordinary. because normalcy just isn't what i plan for.

alive.

every day, you scare me more & more. will it ever end? i hope so.

because i love you more than anyone

man the vibes

It was a miserable day. but the chilly air was nice, perfect for snuggling under the covers.
I have class all day tomorrow, i'm bummed.

listen, i hope things are going well for you, we haven't talked in awhile, but i do think about you alot. I can't wait till i see you again. We can get baked together, like we always do.

it just hit 12:00

I wish i took more control of my life. every day, i have a cup of coffee and a couple cigarettes. then i go to class and tend to put no effort into my work. i'm always thinking about my next fix, and when i'll get to see you again. it's like a routine that is based solely on pointless things.

i wish i could put my words more nicely together, so that they would make more sense or any for that matter.

anyways, my day was a waste, i slept through most of it, then went on a really long drive to think things over. the drive didn't help.